Copyright of photos/images/videos will be respected and will be removed if requested. Tumblr refugee, Xdsmlr refugee, Pinterest refugee, my previous BDSMLR blog 'Rachel 0529' taken down so I'm having to blog build yet again! Some of us who were born male, were never destined to grow into men. Often, but not always, there may have been genetic determinants such as a small build which renders us vulnerable to being bullied by other, bigger boys, which in turn affects us psychologically and emotionally in a manner that hinders us from fulfilling the requirements of what society expects in terms of manly attitude, behaviour and dress.Typically many of us are affected by early childhood experiences. The absence of a strong and constantly present male role model, an overly protective or possessive mother are common factors.Whatever combination of determinants it may be, despite the heavy social conditioning we are bombarded with from birth, we find ourselves as outcasts in the company of other boys and find ourselves preferring to be in the company of girls and women. Often we are called “mummy’s boys” and the like. These derisive labels burn into our consciousness and somehow become self fulfilling as we increasingly find ourselves attracted to effeminacy - in clothing, in behaviour, in the things that interest us. Sooner or later we find ourselves trying on womens clothes - typically stockings and womens underwear at first. We desperately try to rationalise it and tell our selves we’ll never do it again. But we do. As we graduate to high heels skirts, dresses, makeup and start to take enormous risks to dress longer, more often, and take more chances, we come to accept that we are in fact different. We are unable to resist the urge to dress in stockings and girlie clothes. Apart from the strange rush we derive from wearing them, we also derive a perverse comfort form immersing ourselves in effeminacy, in girlie sensations, girlie thoughts and girlie emotions. There is something comforting about submitting, about not having to compete and win all the time and about not having to try to be something we are not. Eventually we learn to live our lives in bras, stockings, girlie clothes, makeup, in consensual sexual relationships with real, mature women who love us and understand us for who we are. And I wish, I wish, I have dreamed of this all my adult life since I was a teenager and discovered the erotic delights of feminine lingerie, stockings and high heels. Why? I don't know but something clicked when I wore panties, suspender belt, stockings, high heels, a nylon nightie and a robe. I became I obsessed with acquiring more lingerie, stockings, shoes etc. I regularly bought top shelf magazines to satisfy my quest for answers for my crossdressing. When I married I kept it a secret for many years until I could no longer hold back and told my wife. Thank God she understood that it had become 'Part of me' but whilst she occasionally indulged my obsession I know she was never really comfortable with it. Now, at nearly 80, I know I can only dream of what might have been- at least I can keep the dream alive here in this blog. Anyone else want to share their thoughts? Elderly ex crossdresser who tried to dress elegantly in lingerie but is NOT into chastity or submission. I am a lover of all things feminine and the spell femininity casts to make the flesh rise and stiffen. I wish I could go back 60 years and find my feminine, sexy self again but with today's understanding of why we crossdress and the availability of womens clothing, lingerie, makeup and wigs via the internet. Today's TV's/CD's/TS's are so lucky to be able to express their sexuality whether they are straight, gay, bi etc. My collection of vintage (not only) glamour pics of mature ladies and shemales I was looking at as a young boy (and still do today), inspired me to become a crossdresser addicted to the same lingerie and to CD's, TV's shemales, CD captions, mature 'Aunties', lesbian and lesbian couples. Adore women's clothes that are sexy and girly. Anything silky, frilly, lacy in satin, nylon or silk. Adore silky slips, stockings and suspender-belts, bras, panties, high heels, nighties and pegnoirs! Male lesbian (Like Eddie Izzard) would be the best description of my sexuality and I LOVE it- Hope this will inspire you too!!!
Crossdressing is Divine. Crossdressing is glorious. Crossdressing is gorgeous. Crossdressing makes you beautiful. Crossdressing makes you complete.
I acknowledge the description of crossdressing, with amendments by myself to https://degradedsissy1.bdsmlr.com/post/464002532
